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Depression and Anxiety: The Battle Within Only You Can Understand

What’s happening to me? As I was walking outside, everything I saw was grey. Everything was in black and white, just like in the movies. I used to stop and smile every time I saw flowers. But now, I can’t appreciate the beauty of it. Nothing can ever get me to smile.

All I ever felt was mere sadness. Deep sadness and pain that I kept regretting waking up in the morning.I kept wishing and hoping I could die. I kept wanting to try and kill myself, and nothing, not even the thought of my three kids, could ever stop me from thinking of leaving this world.

That really scared me! My kids are my world. And if it comes to the point that they don’t even matter. Then something is not right with me. I needed help. I needed to be rescued. So I called my teacher, and the angel got me the people that helped me through this critical time of my life.

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How to Overcome Depression and Anxiety

Acceptance

Acknowledging that something is not right within you is the first step in the battle against depression and anxiety. Notice the signs and symptoms. Although feeling upset and sad is quite normal, it can be alarming if you think that way for several days or weeks. 

Some of the physical and behavioral symptoms of depression are:

  • Low mood, 
  • Decreased energy
  • Chronic fatigue
  • Difficulty making decisions or concentrating
  • Changes in appetite or weight
  • Difficulty sleeping, waking up early, or sleeping late

Emotional symptoms include:

  • Loss of interest in doing anything, hobbies, etc
  • Persistent feeling down, sadness, or emptiness
  • Feeling hopeless
  • Getting angry quickly, irritability or restlessness
  • Feeling guilty or feeling worthless
  • Suicidal thoughts
  • Suicidal attempts

Some people experiencing all these are in denial, while some are unaware that something is not correct. You need to acknowledge and admit that something is going on within you, and you need to reach out. If you don’t realize, how can you be helped? How will you know what to do next?

In my case, when I recognized what’s going on, I cried for help. I reached out and sought professional help because I was afraid that I am already at the crossroads of either breaking down or suicide. That’s why you need to admit that you have a problem—that inner battle.

Seek professional help

There are many causes of depression:

  • It could be from a family history
  • Early childhood traumas
  • Brain structure
  • Medical conditions 
  • Drug abuse

It is essential to know what might have caused your depression to address the help you need correctly. In my case, there were two ways I went about dealing with it. One is through a psychiatrist. Sometimes chemical imbalances in the brain also might be a reason for the depression. The hormonal imbalance, for one, or the serotonin levels are low.

The psychiatrist can give you the proper medication for those. Then you can combine it with cognitive therapy through a psychologist. Psychologists use different approaches in dealing with this. Mostly talk therapy, Or in my case, we made the meditation approach which helped me a lot, especially with my severe anxiety.

We figured out what might have caused the depression, and I processed how it has affected me greatly and learned how to do things that might help me heal, especially the traumas.

Find a support group.

It is beneficial if you can find a support group to help you cope up with your depression. As much as possible, find positive people and avoid toxic ones. You can check out whether your community offers this kind of support group just like alcoholic anonymous, etc.

There you can find individuals who may be dealing with the same situation as yours. Or sometimes even worse. Find strength in helping and motivating each other. You will be surprised how the positivity of others can significantly influence your mood.

Get in touch with nature.

Recharge yourself by getting in touch with nature. Even just by viewing the scenes of nature, nature heals, reduces stress, anger, and increases pleasant feelings. It makes you feel better emotionally. Nature soothes and helps us cope with pain. Nature restores; it enables you to improve your mood.

Most importantly, Get in touch with your spirituality

Sometimes, there is pain that is greater than even the most expensive medicine cannot cure, nor even the most expert professional cannot deal with. What you can do about it is to try to talk to God. Keep praying. Get closer to Him and surrender your innermost pain to Him.

Share with Him what you cannot share with others, and find His answers in ways you’ll never even imagine. Keep closer to God, for only He can forgive us. Sometimes we can’t even forgive ourselves and forget that we are just human and it’s ok to make mistakes. Find inner peace and solace by getting closer to God.

You will realize one day that all that’s been happening and all that we’ve been going through has reasons and that one day we’ll wake up for the better. We have to be patient, especially to ourselves.

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